I feel like I made the decision when I was 22. I wanted the shot at love, someone to build a live with and be my partner. I love kids. I’m very maternal. I’d love to be a mom. I just don’t want to be a mom without having a partner who’s fully on board to parent too. If I have kids I want to give them an amazing father.

So no I’m not scrambling. I have had a moment or two of checking in with myself about my stance. It hasn’t changed. I know the years are dwindling and if I met someone, having kids would need to be on a more expedited timeline than I would’ve preferred. I’m also trying to find peace with the idea of my life not turning out like I envisioned it.