I see a lot of engagement and support from people that mean well. It seems like they know you somewhat also. I’m just a guy on Nostr who likes your gardening and nature posts so I follow you.

I don’t know or follow anyone that commented on this post and it seems like they all came from a place of love and good intentions.

However, I live the life you want to live. I wake up when I want. Go to sleep when I’m tired and pretty much do whatever I want all day long. There is lots of hard work, but I choose what I do. I haven’t had a “job” or an employer since I was 25, I’m 49. I’m not “lucky” or exceptionally talented. I’ve always been very self deterministic and I really can’t stand being told what to do.

Here’s my advice, quit. Quit feeling bad, quit the things that make you feel bad. Don’t do the things you hate. You know you are in the rat race that you hate and the people around you at work are asleep and toxic just by being part of the system. Then you talk about getting more education to sink you farther into the system you hate? That’s what I taught my kids was “stinkin thinkin.”

I’ve made a lot of mistakes. I’ve spent a lot of energy going in the wrong direction on several things. One thing I’m sure of is that if I lost everything I built, I would rather live in a van and be poor while I rebuilt than allow myself to be in a situation that made me feel like you do right now.

As I get older I realize that I do not regret my mistakes or the things I did, but rather the things I didn’t do. Go do the things that make you happy. Let go of what you’ve been told you need and find out what fulfills you.

Or don’t, like I said, I’m just a guy on Nostr, scrolling through the people I follow while I have a cup of coffee and wait for it to get light enough to feed the animals. I don’t care.