I don't really study things, I intuit them. I let my subconscious find truth or no. I do the same and then I find that there are others who have discovered the same things and written them down time and time again. It's reassuring and many of them are also Gnostics.

But, the rest of what you've written falls prey the thought patterns of the Catholic virus. Get out of this self-denial, this universalism, and this salvation thinking. It is a perversion and not at all true to form.

Reject the last 2000 years.