The most profound scene in Mr. Robot is actually within the first 15 minutes when you, the viewer, is led to believe, at first, that Elliot is in it for the money

We quickly find out, however, that Elliot could give a fuck less about the money

If you’re very good at spotting diagnostic criteria, you know that Elliot has a co-morbid dx of both DID and OCD

The only reason this is important to you, the viewer, is to help you grasp two things 1) Elliot is neurobiologically wired (as a result of trauma) to be hauntingly good at hacking

But more importantly, the OCD makes him both obsessive and compulsive

Which means that Elliot. Can’t. Stop.

So, rather than hurt innocent people, Elliot pursues the scum of the Earth (like the child predator we see get arrested in the first 15 minutes of the show)

This has nothing to do with anything except that Mr. Robot is one of my favorite tv shows because almost no one actually understands it.

But I do because I appreciate art that displays surgical like precision.

Reply to this note

Please Login to reply.

Discussion

I wasjust thinking of how I definitely didn't pay enough attention to the last couple seasons. Think I was still drinking when it was on.

I have OCD. It’s not as much fun as you’d think

I do not think it’s fun at all, I think OCD is one of the most impactful diagnosis in the DSM and I know how much it causes suffering

Its on my media server. I should give it a rewatch. Been a few years.

It’s one of those “better the more times you watch it and your perspective changes” 🫡

I might have to watch this

It’s good good

Great show 👍

I only have word of mouth on it, but i have reasons to believe a photo of me in my early 20s ended up as part of the costume research for eliot 😅

😲 😲 WHAT!! Didn’t know every single day I was in the presence of someone who was fashion famous 🥰

How can you code? I ask because I believe you can code. I can't code.

Does it come naturally for you to learn it, or does it take a mental toll that you're just high tier at pushing through?

All my money comes from my dad being a coder when he was alive but there are a lot of coders who can't code. Idk who can code. I can only guess, so I guess you can probably code and he probably could but idk how

Hmm, I get asked this a lot so I’ll try my best to respond with the little understanding that even I have… I think it has always boiled down to I really like to get what I want and

I think… there’s not really a time I can remember where I couldn’t code… i had always had access to a computer and I remember being as little as 5-6 typing FAST and dialing up connections … I was probably like 6-7 when I bricked my first computer (a throwaway my family gave me… super super old school laptop)

My dad was an electrician so he had me working on circuit boards and PCs when I was really really small

But my mom says it was even before the age of 3 that they noticed I was doing “puzzles” at an alarming rate and she had 4 babies before me so she seemed to have insight

But it was more than just computer code, it was code in general… I remember being younger than 6 and writing notes in invisible ink for people to find and in 5th grade a kid wrote a note about killing themselves (they did a shitty handwriting analysis and I got called down to the principals to do a handwriting sample- wasn’t me) after that I developed a code language for my 5th grade class to pass notes in so the adults couldn’t read it

By 8, my mom had me learning Hebrew (so I had to learn character symbols and right to left text) and was exposing me to Aramaic and Latin and I was definitely building small machines by then

I spent 13 years with my ballet teachers speaking to me in French and Russian and my family spent time in Mexico/the west so I picked up a little Spanish too (making language easy for me to flex in and out of)

By middle school I was fully obsessed with passing notes using Caesar ciphers and MySpace/Xanga skins so I was FAST at HTML… I would probably say around 11 I was open sourcing those (among other shit) for my middle school classmates

Then we started getting into LAN parties and it turned out I was pretty good at network and hardware stuff too

I was kind of a natural at geometry and hand/paper coding on old drafting tables in high school so I could backend CAD software

And by then (around 16) I realized I had a sort of innate side hustle so the rest was kind of history - the rest gets blurry and I don’t really want to talk about it all here but I’d say it was a mix of just the right inputs at the right age with a pretty significant interest taking something from 0 to 1 and rebellious streak

Blockchain felt intuitive to me… a lot of my family were accountants and I carried a real check book ledger and check duplicate around that my family got me because I liked balancing check books when I was like 7 so it all just sort of came together

Then I put myself through college waiting tables so I had to use POS systems and I just got really good at understanding the programming that went into those

So it definitely comes more naturally to you 🤯

And life gave you a well coordinated path to develop those skills

Thank you for answering, reading all of this was soothing for my anxiety about the state of the world / humanity 🙏

:) well I’m glad it helped soothe your anxiety- to be fair, I don’t code much anymore… here and there and to say im a programmer is a complex statement

I work more with neuroscience now but coding got me there

Also for a long time I wrote what people call spaghetti code which is a nice way to say I would string blocs of script that I understood just enough together

Rather than the way a programmer codes which is much more clean and easy to follow

When I look back on things I wrote I don’t even know wtf some of it was haha

Neuroscience is much less distant to me, not that I can actually do anything with it but I love reading about it

It’s good stuff and we’re still discovering so much about the brain- it’s a very mysterious organ… eventually when I decide to go back and get my PhD I’ll probably go into computational neuroscience which is kind of a mix of both and what I’ve been largely prepped for

It’s just that I’ve kind of peaked as far as what I can make per hour doing the job I do which is one of the few jobs that pays well as applied neuroscience so I’ve just been lazy

I wouldn't call you lazy, you seem to make very good use of your life

🫂 thanks

Great autobio story; thanks for sharing. 🙏💖🫂🥰

Didn't mean my last question as asking for advice btw. Knowing how you do it wouldn't mean I can do it, I just wonder how you do it