I don't but then I am also facing reality of being a mystic living in a material world in California where having shelter and being nourished and clothed and moving around in my horse and buggy is a real 3D thing at a high cost and I keep wondering how I've made it so far being in the world but not of it. Its a constant shedding of fear of survival and attunement to love and trust.

I know being at my highest service to all of life is not mean to be done and can not happen by subscribing to soul crushing slave matrix false light paradigm.