Became a card carrying scientist and left the church.
As I get older there seems to be evidence accumulating for “something else”, eg UAP/psychic events or “the phenomenon”. This area is still ultra taboo scientifically but I am open to viewing the evidence and testing further and not shy about it even in work circles.
It’s tough being a truth seeker when it’s increasingly clear even the brightest among us have incredibly small windows of perception and intelligence.