Well, I don't believe in myself because I suffer from undiagnosed mental illness(es), I am nuerodivergent, and mixed raced, I've been terminally online since childhood, and have no real grasp, or sense of an objective reality, I disassociate all the time, and feel that things aren't real, or are pointless, meaningless/empty, I have difficulty in forming healthy relationships with people, especially of the opposite gender, I'm almost 28 years old, and my body randomly hurts sometimes, and my current job is physically demanding, I have a hard time establishing healthy sleeping patterns, which makes me arrive at work late, which puts my employment at risk, I am low-income, and am financially struggling, I suffer from imposter syndrome, I'm a chudcel that copes, and uses the internet as tool of escapism from my mediocre life, I acknowledge my problems but I feel powerless in a never ending cycle to actually solve them.

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