You are a lot stronger thank you feel.
All that shit... is shit. Carrying around guilt , remorse and anger... is so hard on the mind and soul.
But the good thing is understanding that it is shit. It is of no use to us. We want to use better mental tools.
But how do we go about that after being condition, formed and hardened by our experiences?
I agree with you man my conditions have made me stronger but also weaker both at the same time. Everyday I’m reminded of my past with the scars on my wrist from when I was 17 they’re so deep not even laser removal has got rid of them, I’ll probably get tattoos eventually but it’s like a metaphor for my mind as-well. Scars so deep nothing I do removes them. Bags on my eyes that don’t go away no matter the sleep I get. It really does take a tole on your soul.
Your a cool dude I see you around Nostr a lot and I appreciate you brother. 💜
