The truth is forgiving my friend and it will hold you in her warm embrace while you learn and until you learn even if that's never. Along the way people may show up as mirrors to help on the quest to truth you have forgotten. Many are the constructs of reality quickly painted as truth to those souls newly arriving into body on earth. Hence forgetfulness. When you say the choice is up to you, you are speaking directly into the mumbo jumbo of 12.