I was searching for the deployment report video for Iron Squad W, but I couldn’t find it. Perhaps they removed it. I’m not sure.

I was reflecting on the moment I first watched that video. It was the end of a very exhausting day of working on my resume to send to my headhunter. It was one of those days. I felt incredibly lonely and isolated as someone who lives under unimaginable pressure due to a challenging living situation where I can’t share many of my feelings and emotions with others. Watching those soldiers who live with confidentiality and take such a stressful environment as normal made my reality a bit easier to accept. I’ve never experienced the military firsthand, but I’m accustomed to living with a heavy sense of pressure on my chest and shoulders. It’s difficult to describe because it’s not like I have clear roles and responsibilities assigned by an organization. It’s still hard for me to articulate what I’m going through. While watching those soldiers live their lives with pride, however, I feel a glimmer of hope that my life could improve, just like theirs. https://www.instagram.com/p/DAk2NURTNLe/?igsh=eXdmM3B3bGpicnBq