For me, it was verify, don’t trust.

I grew up being told that Christianity was the truth, and had a difficult time trying to find ways to squeeze objective truths (dinosaurs, the age of the Earth, where the other people came from that Adam & Eve’s kids married, etc).

After understanding that the Creation story was drafted by people who clearly did not have omniscient knowledge of history, it led to understanding many other aspects of the religion were created by humans for their own motivations, and then to realizing all of it is.

Removing the ‘problem’ of the inconsistencies of religion makes life simpler.

It was difficult for me bc everyone else in the family/community/whatever still believed in the truth as told by the Bible. But letting go of it bc it cannot objectively be true undoubtedly later helped me to question the reality of our financial situation and why ₿ is so important. The ‘leaders’ in my financial community/family were telling that this system based on trust is the way to go forward, but objectively, the system based on math and physics is obviously going to win. Honestly it surprises me when I encounter so many Bitcoiners that are still devoutly religious. But, everyone is on their own journey, and it generally is not harmful for people to believe in a religion that allows them to take the weight off their mind. (Caveat: Some religions/subsects of religions are harmful to others.)

TLDR; try to let go of the religious guilt that you are saddling yourself with. The universe is random, and everyone in it is looking out for their own interests.