literally sometimes all I dream about is being abducted by aliens who fix me so I'm not so shy and therefore more willing to Prove Myself to the Gatekeepers of Industry; but also, this would save me from having to entertain more "musically-inclined" men who think of talent a certain way (not my way).

it's like I have to play games with them so as not to throw their egos in a dumpster and light them on fire on my path to explaining that just bc you are loud and confident when u strum ur fucking guitar does not mean you can do what I can do - a very delicate dance primarily because men be faking how much they can handle women being better at them at literally anything.

I'm playing stupid and untalented so I don't get stalked again. I need those aliens to give me money so I don't have to deal with horny ass old men anymore.