corporate types always talk in idioms and slogans, and you wonder what they actually meant because it all just sounds like truisms
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you're left with the feeling that all that common advice people give you actually worked in their case, maybe because their knowing-doing gap is small, so they're execution machines that rarely have to work around their limitations. they can just decide on stuff and carry it all the way through. the stark opposite of that is ADHD, which is what i have. i'm a highly unproductive person most of the time because i rarely manage to get my shit together. the average person sits somewhere in between these two extremes.
I'm bipolar so I have periods of hyper-productivity, and periods where I can't even take care of myself.
there's a lot of overlap between that an ADHD because both involve issues with self regulation, which includes mood
i attended a course for bipolars once and it was full of people with ADHD
"not steady" is a big mood for both
I've been misdiagnosed with ADHD before because I was hypomanic. The meds for ADHD just make me more manic.
interestingly, when i tried Vyvanse, it triggered a psychosis and i hallucinated
that whole episode is actually a major part of why i dropped out of the computer industry. i was trying to medicate to keep working because my motivation was faltering but it didn't work and just made me sick in a number of ways instead
Ritalin was the first thing i tried and it did help. silence in my head, no constant thoughts bouncing around, and also, i became less forgetful. i'm notoriously forgetful. my short term memory isn't great. the psychiatrist actually pointed this out because when he heard me talking, there was a fair bit of going in circles. it's easier when i use a computer because it helps me remember what i was just saying. anyway, on Ritalin, keeping mental lists became easier. without it, things keep falling out of the mental list. problem was that it didn't last for very long and also gave me headaches and constipation. most of the meds i tried had unpleasant side effects for me, so that's why i'm not on them.
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