I'm being serious. It's incredibly difficult, even if you read Silence as not speaking in anger, or acting in anger, but also some sort of inner quiet.
It's the healthiest imo. But not saying it's the easiest. In fact most of the time if feels impossible. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I knew you were cooking something.
Here's a turtle emoji to help your inner quiet, works a little bit for me 🐢
What I do, (but not saying it works) is try to remember in the heat of the moment other times when I've spoken or acted out of anger and how undignified it feels afterwards. And how much indwell on it after. And they to avoid that dwelling another time. I often fail:/
I'm obviously not saying anger isn't sometimes justified and things should be met with response tho. More thinking of initial rage lol
So sick of thinking of scenarios when I should've said and done nothing. Kept silent. But no. They are now filed in the 'things to dwell on when you can't get to sleep' insomnia folder lol
shhhh its oke, nostr is here, gimme a hug
You having a gun pointed at me makes this conversation scary and thrilling. Pointing it at me playfully without pulling the trigger reminds me of how you go through life as a powerful creature under such self-restraint. I feel l'appel du vide wondering if the next moment could be when you lose control and I become your first victim
… 😦
I love you ☘️ can we be friends
