Don't be sad if you're not 100% convinced yet. That's the path which will lead you to become convinced. No one us became it out of thin air, by simply believing. Being critical is the most important asset you need, break down why you're not convinced, then research/learn find the answers. This can take years but in the end you'll be certain. At least that's what has happened so far to everyone who went deep down the rabbit hole.
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I've been at the rabbit hole. I Just don't know if bitcoin will win the organized tyranny.
Imagine how a future will look without Bitcoin... A dystopian nightmare, that's why I'll keep dedicating all of my time to Bitcoin.
I can also recommend you to read "Innovation and it's enemies" A great book about how new innovations are always fought in the most bizzare ways etc. e.g when the first cars we're invented the horse lobby ensured that cars are only allowed to drive max 20km/h so they would be slower than a horse etc. You see a lot of parallels there how now the financial industry tries to do the same with Bitcoin. I guess today you not riding a horse. So these absurd laws pushed by lobbyists might slow down the adoption but in the end the superior tech always wins.