Thanks for the zap man, thats huge for me. Biggest ever. Really, thank you. ❤️

Im feeling a bit better today. Still not 100% but thats okay, thats probably normal because it was the first time in my life I talked about it openly and somewhat publicly(even though im mostly anonymous here cuz nobody here knows me outside of nostr yet)

The only other people I ever told this were my ex girlfriends, therapists, mother and brother. Therapists dont really count so it was actually just 5 people in 22 years since it happened. So what happened last night was a big deal for me and your kind messages make me feel I did the right thing.

Still it was really fucking hard. Been years since I last cried this much.

Thank you for your kind words. From the bottom of my heart. ❤️

Shit now im crying again. What the fuck hahahah 😅