If you want to claim I lost smth because I didn't act "according to some plan" as seems to have been going on for a while .. I get the distinct impression that *I don't care* about all these arbitrary bs.

Many actions seem based on supposed prescribed preconditions, demands and timelimits. So far, the impression that gets made is that I "missed" or "failed" smth, but not why that's supposedly so much of a loss.

At this point, what I see is a *lot* of crazy people putting enormous effort in a lot of bullshit, lies and false accusations with little to no purpose. And apparently very little incentive toward a good outcome. Why should I even trust (in) a favorable outcome in the first place? *You* have shown me very little of that.