My life gives me reason to think

that it's economically not good for me to live with a woman. A woman for me will stay a liability with a big risk and probably low reward. Also, I just don't think that they can live in a monogamy. If they had partners before me, what's the difference

between them and whores?

They can use the state to take my assets or if I don't give them the seeds, my life.

Even if now all is great, who will tell me that it will be after 20 years?

I can't even trust my mum.

I don't trust people.

I don't trust woman.

(Most of the times when someone is good to me, I'm really surprised and thankful,

because I'm not used to it.)

Probably my mental illness,

but I can't get rid of it,

its to hardwritten in my head.