I think about this all the time because it seems like my loved ones and I are gonna die for our choices and there are a lot of people who seem happy about it. I spend every day wishing Digit valued her own survival more and felt like I don't deserve to die either. And I guess she spends every day wishing a guy she loved didn't kill himself.
If there was a button you could press that would make no one ever die again, everyone would deserve you to press it. We only deserve to die because it's too hard for us to survive