I mean. I'm starting to change myself (I was never really prone to change. I was somewhat a dump of ideas I thought were irreplaceable) but in my journey to change I found myself obsessed by the idea of not being able to change the bitcoin part. How can I change myself completely if the bitcoin appendix can't really be cut off (the idea of bitcoin is so persistent in my mind that I don't know if I will really be able to take it off)
Is that more clear?