my chart means i was saturn's apprentice
it also means other stuff like everyone's chart means many stuff
but saturn's apprentice am i
i can fight against it, i can subvert it, i can work with it, i can become it, i can make it a color i use in a painting
to speak of saturn is to speak of law
of weights and measures
i have natural aptitude for checks and balances and law thinking
my judgement to me is important to me
it is one of my most important things to me
i am very harsh on myself when it comes to my judgements
do i have to be so harsh? no. i am working on having a kinder inner voice. but i also get to be me working with me.
i get to make determinations for me relative to the scope of my own life.
like yo im never seeing a film from that director.
does saturn also make me a party pooper?
like it doesnt not
but again, the deep deep deep importance of what?
agree to disagree
places where there is agreement to disagree as a covenant in highest respect
example: separation of church and state
to me: that is hallowed that has to be hallowed or the whole thing falls apart
are things falling apart so terrible?
no
but when they do, there is a very clear before and a very clear after and there is no way to go back. repair and remediate and remix and recover in homage, sure. go back? no
spilled milk is spilled milk
saturn is a slow mover
saturn can put a lot on the house
saturn is very load bearing
but if people are not true to saturn what happens?
broken promises
hypocrisy
then what happens?
saturn becomes illusion
saturn is fake
saturn is a matrix that lies
the bill never does get paid does it?
broken trust
saturn is consequences
those consequences either come and they make sense
or the whole thing was a lie
if it is a lie,
if say: "the dream of rome was just a dream it was a lie"
then what
the crumbling
in that crumbling, new saturn arises
as in: a new world order
are all people equal under the law or are some people more equal than others?
does every single person have the right to an attorney?
is every single person innocent until proven guilty?
does the bill of rights exist
is the bill of rights alive?
or is it a lie
because a great very many people have not been experiencing equality under the law
a great very many people are being unjustly targeted by the law
a great very many people are being hunted by the law like they are wildlife and not human beings
a great very many people are presumed guilty and have to constantly calibrate to try to prove their own innocence
a great very many people have to move undercover knowing they are presumed guilty knowing no matter what they say or make or do or speak it doesnt matter but still they try and they have been trying for hundreds of years whole generations born living dying just trying trying trying trying trying trying trying trying trying trying trying to prove their innocence that other people are granted by default
can you imagine the absolute audacity it takes to finally have enough of a wave to finally say:
black is so very beautiful
just one time
and to not even have a fraction of a second to rest in the peace of the absolute truth of that inviolable knowingness
before people rush in to smother that out like: well actually, everything is beautiful. all colors. your math is wrong.
black lives matter
well actually, all lives you idiot
god forbid there is a moment of black supremacy
every other supremacy oh yea that can exist that exists every day that's fine
black supremacy? lollllllllllll
sorry not you
like are you kidding me?
are you kidding me that residential school reconciliation chose the slogan: every child matters?
like fuck off!!!
but who chose that slogan?
the fucking state
like hey this will be funny let's watch natives fight black people
meanwhile?
like so meanwhile
black natives? to the meatgrinder for you
