My room is a mess. I moved the piles of stuff on 1/3 of the couch to my bed and now I have enough room to sit and watch some rom com on tubitv.com.

Since my mom got back 4 days ago, I've been in high stress. And I want to hide and I want to escape. I don't want to be home and I don't want to have to deal with her. It's just triggers after triggers with her negligence, micro-aggressions and self-centeredness.

Like she's been gone for almost 6 months and she pretty much didn't talk to me the whole time, but it's not about "hey, what's new? Let's catch up." It's about her life and what she wants to do. What's going on with me really doesn't matter to her.

I need to figure out what to do to stay distant from her. There, my top priority.

Ugh.