I'm a fucking nerd, I didnt choose it and I try to avoid my nature and enjoy my time as a normie around normie people as much as I can. But when I have time, I return to my way of hyperfocusing on little things -someone would say "insignificant"- and pass my time studying it and experimenting like a monkey with nerdy stuffs. This has been my problem, but also seems to turn more and more often as a resource and a superpower, as I have been able to stack a lot of useless skills and informations that now I can put togheter to solve actual real problems.

I think I need just more consistency and control, I'm not happy with the fact that I live my studings and experiments as "raptus-driven", I think intentionality is the most important thing for long time planning and I want more of it.