your epistemology needs some work.
there is no contradiction is acknowledging I am not the source/weilder of knowledge itself, and yet i can perceive its light
i’ve spent untold hours and most of my life in the pursuit of that light.
perhaps all that work, paddling towards it gives me a better look
I earned what little gnosis i have by adversity. **_Something_** (I think God) has saved my life over and over... But I doubt the story is believable, so I'll keep it to myself.
gnosis isn’t just knowing something. it’s a specific dynamic or relation between you and knowledge.
to use it in that way is like saying house cat means wild tiger.
I think Jesus laid it out pretty well. Simply : gnosis is humility. And humility means your searching without assumptions. IMO that's the key he was talking about in that spat with the lawyerish pharisees.
There is a cosmology in Gnosticism - several, actually, and they don't agree with each other - but that's allegory for psychological processes and spiritual speculation. The conflict between Gnosticism and the churches is basically that Gnosticism rejects answers, while the churches promulgate specific answers that are fraudulent upon inspection.
You've surely found how Christian beliefs have mutated over time... Right?
