When you die, you will be judged for your rebellion against God who is clearly crying out to you.
100 years of sin and an eternity separated from all Love. God is great, He is also righteous, and the unrighteous cannot stand in His presence. He is just, and all retribution is His.
You did not choose to rebel. You are not one of the elect. There will be no convincing you, because you were predestined to fall, and to suffer the loveless hellfire. At least, that’s how it seems to me.
Remember that fear is a signal.