nah, i mean yeah, my hormones and metabolism have definitely started changing in the last few years, but part of the problem is the damage my habits have done to my organs i think. compounded with the allergies caused by the changes in the food supply (i can hardly eat anything these days without getting some unpleasant reaction)

but nah because the change in a male is a lot less abrupt, things just slow down until you get to around 70 and at that point you're mostly shooting blanks and badly coded ones. would be nice to have some mini me's but i gotta get a bit richer first lol. although a lot of the bad times i had with girlfriends over the years were toxic personalities a lot were related to my socioeconomic position.

i'm not gonna let myself dwell on that too much, and instead focus on the beauty of mathematics.