everyone here thinks I'm sad about something else - I'm not - and none of it has to do with men, whose behavior can sometimes feel like a neverending supply of sadness and despair. really, I want to just make music and, like, *express myself*.

one thing I've learned is that there is never a perfect time for anything and it's impossible to make things exactly the way you think they need to be in order to work, so just Fuck Around and Find Out as per usual.