I totally get it....

Like and similar to "if you build it they will come"

But it / they never came with anything I'm capable of/ interested in building, or doing...

It's hard for me to shitpost, crack jokes, and in general make lightly of life after being homeless...

That experience has robbed me of that.

I was and had to be fully focused to get out.

Now I'm stuck fully focused so i, or the family I now have, never go back...

I know it's killing my other personality traits. Even my g/f can see it...

I'm just stuck and don't know what to do...

Guess I'm just scared if I lighten up, or take a break so to say, it's all just gunna slip away...