My first girlfriend made me try it when I was a teenager. That just made things worse.

Other than that I've only been locked up against my will. Also makes things worse. Last time, they did it as retaliation for political speech, and threw in injecting me with psychoactive shit against my will for the first time.

So everything on the spectrum from "going to a psychologist willingly" to "being medicated by force" is a bad solution for my problems.

No "mental health professional" is trained to help someone who wants to be a good person. They can't do it. They generally just try to make you more normal, which is useless for me because I don't want to kill myself and my loved ones like a normal person. I want to try as hard as I can to survive and protect my loved ones, like a wild mammal.