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I love Nostr and have been here for 3 years however it’s difficult to use now.

First, I felt like my post were annoying people or coming of disingenuous so I stopped posting every morning.

Then, my feed became unusable. Idk if it was all the accounts I followed early on but the bots, the scammers, and tech convos I know nothing about kinda deflated my enthusiasm. It’s as if no matter what I post or hashtag I can’t find any conversation that I’d find interesting.

I’m not on telegram so I’m not apart of any of the women of Nostr groups or other subcultures that can be found here. I don’t like having to keep up with when I need to renew paid subscriptions.

Moving to “Bitcoin country” has caused me to lose a lot of respect for bitcoiners so even that draw isn’t as appealing anymore. Especially when they’re not who they present themselves to be when you meet them in person.

I’ll never turn away from Nostr but my interactions look different. All that I do now is scroll, react, and zap really good stuff otherwise I feel like I don’t belong so I don’t engage anymore. It’s sad because this place was genuinely a source of light for me for so long. nostr:note1lgdwdawvuhc435xk4qf7fzjuhe928c7jtwm47mj2ayvreg48zsvqw4rkm9

TK SuitCoin.exe 80HpW 6mo ago

I dont expect anything from nostr. I treat it like my own personal blog of sorts. Post things i find funny, interesting or whatever. Little moments here and there. I'm sorry you're not enjoying it like you used to. Maybe some detox time is needed to renew yourself? Shadow work maybe?

Alot of what i read above is your own perception "i don't feel like i belong"

Says who?

"Tech convos i know nothing about"

Well you could choose to learn about them but if this isn't your bag don't force yourself to learn about things you've no interest in.

"I felt like i was annoying people or came off disingenuous "

This is another perception that you have, did anyone actually tell you this or was this just battles you were facing with yourself in your own head?

You moved to el Salvador? I wasn't aware of that. Good for you! Id read a similar thread about someone else that has said they also had the same feelings you did towards the whole thing. Unfortunate. I never understood why people act like one thing online then another IRL.

Don't force yourself to have to "keep up" with anything but you dear! Bitcoin is just a tool, at the end of the day the goal is happiness, make sure you keep that goal square in mind and you'll go far.

Cheers.

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BitcoinBelle 6mo ago

I appreciate your note. I really respect your perspective. Thanks for the kind words and reminder 💞

I genuinely think it’s a mixed bag. I joined Nostr to grow but also to escape the toxicity of legacy socials. Sure, it could totally be 100% my perception that I turned into a reality. However, I’m learning to go with my gut and that was kinda the vibe I was getting.

I used to genuinely feel happy interacting but at some point there was a hard shift. I’ve been in the shadows recently for a few months and that’s been cool. It’s also how I realized my feed is outta whack. I’ll figure it out. #nostr is still my fave. I believe in it and all that’s being built on it. I think I’m just having growing pains of some sort.

Yeah, El Salvador is beautiful. It has its flaws but it’s genuinely a great place. I still think of it as Bitcoin country because the country has an infrastructure (though minimal) that I feel the US lacks. It’s also a place where I can have a baby without fearing that I can’t afford one … or like I’d die in labor simply because I’m black.

I didn’t move here for Bitcoin. I moved here because I can afford to live the life I want to and it’s safe. It’s just sad that so many who claim to represent Bitcoin are actually self serving … but it’s no different than what Bitcoin magazine is doing. Bitcoiners need a face lift or something because idk if Satoshi would be welcome to his own party.

I pay my tennis coach in Bitcoin and he uses it as a savings vehicle and spends the cash he receives from other trainees. It’s awesome to see a 25 yr old man have hope. If happiness is the goal, then I’m very blessed because I’m happy and have been for a long time. Im just nostalgic for 2023 Nostr. It was such a good time 😂

TK SuitCoin.exe 80HpW 6mo ago

That's good I'm glad that you have those opportunities down there and I pray that you continue to have many more in your future