ordeal of manhood

totally utterly failed

selway adventure

pondered lately

starved for meat

deer too big

ducks in marriage

finally a rattlesnake

on a rocky cliff

on a horsetrail

fatal condemnation

& I get to eat it!

unable shoot

only possible

knife behead it

we battled long

now i know

it could have

struck aun missed

then easily fled

frustrated

humiliated

exhausted

impatient took

big ass boulder

both hands lifting

i thought it cornered

now i know truth

caz only able process

moment i saw den

springling child

could have killed me

but it fled into bushes

boulder logistically stupid

now feared but enraged

rattlesnake has entire mtn

this spot death sentence

after the child safe

defense lost edge

pinned & beheaded

MOD-MK knife

roasted it over fire

ate it all

after MaoMao had kittens

able to reinterpret achievement

into a shameful tragedy

i had all reason

triumphant

how can life

ever be calc

for it must be

loss of possibility

of the killed

burden of justice

of the victor

let it weigh strike

never inhibit decision

wish i failed

fright the lesson

lust of hunger

imbalance justice

NEVER TAKE GAINS

suffer sinner & judge