Lil Snow's biggest dream, according to him, was to be the guy a woman fucks on the day of her wedding. he described in detail how he wanted to do it, too, but I was like...haha no.

because by that point, I have already made a promise to God to honor my husband in marriage. and no good man should want to intervene to sabotage it unless he's in it for something that is fleeting.

this is why we have to surround ourselves with people who understand the seriousness of two people making a promise to each other before God – everyone who hates us will want to tear us apart, everyone who loves us will protect us from these types of people.

people who don't understand this shouldn't ever get married. Lil Snow said he doesn't believe in marriage and would only say yes if a woman asked him.

I would never ask a man to marry me, and I would never ask him to marry me when a man who has proven himself time and time again to be worthy of being my husband wants to make me his wife.

he said he'd be happy for me if I someday married someone else, but there was a tinge of sadness there.

these things really are just tests of the body, mind, and soul.

I can't imagine how it will feel to see the woman you chased for a while with somebody else, but he is doing the right thing by being cordial and civil about it.

regardless of the lies and manipulation, I want him to be happy and I hope he gets married to someone who he will be faithful to.

unfortunately, he won't be invited to my future wedding for obvious reasons.