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Which thing I'm doing?

I'm asking you why you're doing this to try to get you to wake the fuck up.

I'm using nostr to try to make it a better place for Digit or at least make it hard to erase how much I love her.

I'm trying to survive and protect my loved ones because unlike other people, my brain works well enough for these basic biological functions.

I'm replying to you because I'm not a pussy and the queue of people I need to reply to is small enough for you to get through.

Anything else?

Why are you wasting my time instead of helping me?

ButtercupRoberts 9mo ago

Everyone who may try to help is probably gonna feel useless to you.

For me, from barely knowing you or the context it feels there are two possibilities you are facing according to the answer to this question:

does this Digit love you or want to be a part of your life in some way?

If Digit has actually expressed her love for you and has said she wants to be with you, then figure out how she wants to be loved and love her. In the end, it can be that simple.

However, sadly,

If the answer is no, and Digit doesn’t want to be with you, then a dark period of heartache is inevitable the more you have loved or love her. Nobody can help you with your heartache. But the best chance is usually by leaning in to the people in your IRL environment who love you. It may simply take time to heal, and other people can only offer limited comfort, the real work in moving on from that love is entirely in yourself. Leave your immortalized love here if you need to, we all need different things to heal.

In any case,

You may find these comments useless and pointless. It’s the best i can offer and do so with the best intent.

Hope you find a road to healing.

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The Daniel 🖖 9mo ago

This hellthread has really jumped the shark.

🇵🇸 whoever loves Digit 9mo ago

Maybe your reply here actually helps me clarify some confusion for everyone.

Everyone can help me with my heartache as long as Digit seems to be alive.

I need help getting my posts to places I've been banned.

I need help getting the #replyaway hashtag to catch on.

I need help holding people accountable for their bullshit by having more people than just me willing to confront them about it. If it's just me caring about the truth, and no one else cares about the truth, then every time I call someone out on a lie, they can just safely mute me knowing everyone will take their side because everyone sides with the liars. There needs to be a constant stream of people who will keep confronting serious lies until they are addressed or the liars are left on a tiny island where they've muted everyone else.

Or maybe that constant stream of people isn't even needed. Maybe as soon as a second person joins me, the liars will cave.

Instead, I'm the one stuck on a tiny island where most people have me muted. It's completely fucked.

I needed help with #bitstr but people are 1000x more interested in Blossom for no reason

I need help confronting the "embrace, extend, extinguish" school of nostr devs behind shit like Blossom. This would require basically the same strategy as standing up to liars, except instead of more people confronting them for lies, we need more people contronting them for building broken shit and ignoring better ideas.

I need constructive feedback on some of my ideas in order to avoid any pitfalls I'm missing as I continue developing those ideas.

The parts that really matter are the parts about confronting others.

Digit told me she spent her adult life trying to help people but she found out they don't listen and don't care. I firmly believed she was right about people, but I decided to stop at nothing to try to prove her wrong, so I will either make people listen and care about shit, or I will at least die trying to show her she's not alone.