Man - I enjoyed that episode more than any of your others & I can't quite pick why.
What I initially felt (and continued to feel) was that you'd find the prefect house for your lifestyle but that you'd lose it because of it being a poor financial investment. I'm not giving you a green light to go emotional but let go the need for it to be a great investment. It's a very different situation to your other (negative) RE investment.
What I need to tell you is that it's OK if your home is a poor investment. Bitcoin is your primary investment & if you can keep some or most of it, it will balance your home's less than amazing performance. If you pass up the perfect house, you'll kick yourself later.
I didn't want to sell my house until late 2022. I suggested to my wife that we sell up, put everything in storage & go travel the world. She couldn't let the house go unfortunately. Luckily I had in 2020 I drawn down heavily on our mortgage & invested it in magic internet money. I'm sure she would have left me if that had all gone pear shaped. It's on a beautiful piece of land & has the house where we raised or children. I'm learning to become comfortable with holding it but I'm yet to pay off the mortgage.
I really loved hearing this part of your story & where you've landed. I personally would never want to live in Victoria again, let alone buy a place but that's just me. I hope you solve the financing issue without risking or selling too much Bitcoin. Your support network sounds amazing, particularly your finance guy.
I'm really impressed by how far you've come since I first met you. Well done mate π€