Proof of Work:
Today marks the first day on my journey toward an important project that will hopefully have a profound impact on the (or at least my) world.
I have had a lot of downtime since I quit my job back in mid-2021, trying to transition to some kind of digital content creation. I imagined myself as a YouTube creator, and had the vaguest of ideas about the kind of content and format that I would be going for, but I just didn't have the drive or the follow through. Today I looked over some of the "scripting" that I worked on back then, and it was basically unreadable incoherent rambling; my heart wasn't in it, and my head was in a bad place.
And I'm not trying to make excuses, I do have issues with self-motivation to put it lightly (I can absolutely be a straight lazy-ass son of a bitch) but so much work that people around the world are forced to do is so much more onerous because they are meant to be doing something else, even if they don't know what that is.
Anyways, I've known that I'm meant to be a writer, but it's never been something that I've pursued because I was forced to do subsistence work in order to survive and felt like I lacked time. Now, I had the time, but I lacked the confidence, the motivation, and the vision. Eventually I ended up finding a part-time job because bills need paying, and I wasn't getting anything done, and I was starting to get into a really dark head-space accomplishing fuck-all day in and day out.
It's hard to say exactly what changed between then and now, but the best explanation that I can come up with was just that I started reading again, or in other words, working my brain. It's taken a while, and every time I think I have some kind of momentous breakthrough or moment of clarity, it inevitably evades me, but bit by bit I've worked my way out of the funk that I had been in, basically since the pandemic hit in early 2020, and into a head-space that aligns with a serious effort to follow my dreams. In order to achieve this, and maintain the positive momentum that has been gathering, I've imposed a work schedule on myself, as well as a ban on social media during the work day, excluding Nostr, of course.
Unlike other sites, posting on Nostr is work (in a good way) and I hope that I can leverage all the work done by the honest plebs here into achieving something far greater than what I could accomplish myself. Like Nostr, my works' potential is still a dream, a twinkle in one's eye.
And I don't want to make it sound like I have delusions of grandeur either; it's hard for me to imagine having an impact on the world by any stretch of the imagination, but I hope that at the very least I'll be able to channel my downtime into productive work consistently enough to complete my project, and even just that will be valuable to me.
So, as proof, what I worked on today, the outline, to be researched and fleshed out moving forward.