Hey Nelly, we're all here for you my friend. I know its not in person, but we love you. My first husband died very young, and I was very lonely for a long time. But i think it helped to go out to places where there were lots of people,because usually I would find someone to chat with. And even though they might be strangers, it was human interaction, and i think that helped me. Join clubs of whatever hobbies you like, be it sports, chess, book clubs, hunting, you never know who you might become friends with.