no, i really would not say to someone i consider to be a friend, or even an enemy to "go fuck yourself with a saw" that's not the kind of thing i say even when i'm really mad

i think either i've lost control of my nsec or someone made a sock impersonation account to dish out what they think is a simulacra of my angry expressions but without the intelligence behind it that mine show

also i haven't been drinking very much for about 2 months compared to the past and this never happened before

last interaction i recall with dawn was talking about how she was closing her coffee shop and i might have said something like "caffeine bad" or something lol, but certainly not a suggestion of self mutilation