phones are like weapons in a dysfunctional family like mine. my parents, have obviously done really heinous things to get content and do what my ex was always so keen on doing – exploiting me. only problem is that when you start using your own tendency to abuse for the sake of content then you are actually just an evil fucking person.

I can't even tell you the stories about my mom but I'm sure my siblings are more than happy to corroborate. thing is, they're not gonna corroborate just to retraumatize themselves for global attention and neither am I. our shared experience is very serious considering the swamp of irony we came out of.

I really don't care what my siblings political beliefs are because they are my siblings and I love them more than I will ever love the two abusive fucks we had the misfortune of having to call parents. yes, they homeschooled us (if that's what you'd call it) and yes, they taught us about Jesus (rather, rammed their misinterpretations of the Bible down our throats); and yes, they often did verbally, psychologically, and physically abuse us.

the threat of being smashed to pieces emotionally and psychologically by our parents was and is still very real, because THAT IS WHO THEY ARE and it is unfortunate that they've become darlings of the left. the right also has to deal with the fact that God forgives but humans never forget, nor should they ever.

that's true suicidal empathy and I don't have a drop of it in me, regardless of whether I've come to terms with what has transpired and continues to transpire.

that's why I keep records of everything they say and do, and my records show who's right and who is wrong very clearly.

salvation isn't a Kumbaya Moment - it is confession, admission, repentance, and paying real life consequences. Jesus died for telling the truth even with righteous anger, that's why we remember him; we don't remember Jesus' sacrifice because he was a liar who actually paid the price for his lies.

sorry to say, but like I've BEEN saying, there's real evidence of everything I've "alleged" and there are many other victims of my parents, who have concealed their evil words and actions with Christianity.

as much as I want to forgive and already have forgiven them, their continued abuse is unacceptable and I will not tolerate it anymore. neither will my "chosen family". they're using forgiveness as a free pass to abuse, but this has always been the case: "forgive and forget."

I don't care that this might cast aspersions on a political party since my parents have long been a part of it. my Christianity, especially and thankfully, was based on the truth and hope of Jesus' love, grace, and protection on MY LIFE. my heart is pure and I have no skeletons in my closet, so to speak.

the bad things I've done are things I regret and will never deny. but I know that secrets and lies in families like mine are ultimately being tortured in a pressure cooker where mommy and daddy are all too happy to stuff you inside and make sure you never leave so they can exploit and extort and cry about how mean it is that anyone should ever try to hold them accountable.

it's getting very ugly again and I just hope that neither of them do something insane once they realize that the lie has completely unraveled.