i also like to blast music and drive dangerously coming back from the gym.

cars are a trap like this - the better you feel the more they get you in trouble.

this is what sucks about becoming old and wise - the number of things you can enjoy dwindles because you recognize most of them as traps.

about the only thing you can still enjoy as you get older is tinkering with various tools ( like those garden pruning shears i been ordering this week ) which is why when i broke them i finally lost it. because i realized i was giving up the last thing i have that i can still enjoy in order to meet obligations imposed on me by the world that never cared about me. i was betraying myself.