when they find out, they realize I'm only acting normal in a very abnormal situation, and nobody wants that kind of attention-by-association for better or for worse.

it's a big kind of love and a big kind of hate.

when I'm in the ocean, it's clear to me that this isn't just human nature, it is nature itself. there is no choice but to take the good with the bad; otherwise, one never learns the art of survival.