I appreciate this. Big feelings all around, lots of scary stuff but other than the broken heart 💔 she's healthy and recovery should be easier on her. It's the uncertainty of when that has me on edge now. Waiting, waiting, and more waiting 😭.
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when there is some important change about to happen, we start to focus on that and it gets so hard to wait. allowing ourselves to feel all that comes while waiting will certainly get us to where we are here and now.
I imagined you talking to your mother about yarn or both of you in silence just feeling each other's presence. or you seing a bird or the window, or the floor, or anything and just remembering you are in this moment. it was like something that will show itself and you don't even have to look for.
but before it shows (if it isn't already), just feel what comes seems to be the only thing we can do.
I don't think any of the things I said is necessary, I just wanted to remember you that you can feel all you are feeling and hold you hand while you do that.
Thank you. Today was a good day, we had a step forward on no steps back. She is where she needs to be and I'm grateful for that.