Going through a lot of deep reflective personal issues with my work situation I've become more and more disenfranchised with doing what I'm doing and the more I continue to destroy myself in order to maintain What I have done. I've been doing what I've been doing since 2005. For the vast majority of what I've done it has very much become a part of my personality or my self identification. But as I've grown personally intellectually physically through Finding bitcoin, I see how unself serving this place really is and how much of a leech it is on my full potential to do the other things that I otherwise deem more important in my life.

I do not feel that I have stacked enough Bitcoin to walk away and say fuck this place. But I'm not sure how much longer I can hang on to doing what I've been doing. I can feel my mind wandering into how much it leaches away from me and how I would like to do other things but with that decision becomes uncertainty and uncertainty is not a path that most choose willingly. The path into the unknown is one that is a hard path to learn about the unknown And to face it head on. I'm not sure what else I can do to supplement the lifestyle that I have.

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