I'll admit, I'm a little freaked out. I think it mostly has to do with the fact that no one besides me really knows what's going on. Even if I tell someone about this, there is too much to cover and everything changes so quickly at this point out is simply impossible to communicate the sheer scale of everything my body is going through. To them, I look fine. My changed gait is literally the first thing other than weight fluctuations from fluids that anyone would notice, in thirty years.