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Here's small story about change.

When i was young i started develop some mental health issues. There was alot of fighting and drinking on my home. At around 13-14 I got descripted SSRI medicines for deep depression.

I was pretty good in school always, in math / physics. Only english, my mother language and sweden was where i had stuggles becouse i could care less.

At around 15-16 i started drinking alcohol and "self medicine" myself with opioids almost everyday. I got money by stealing cigarettes from stores and selling them to random drug addicts for cheap price.

At 17 i moved in "boys home" or what ever. I did not mind, like i understand the reasons. And my life was not bad there becouse i have been always respectful and nice to others. Like i have never had that kindof problems. But i kept drinking and eating opioids.

When i got adult and moved to be with my self, everything did go shit. I quit schools, started using drugs every single day, more than before. I lost everything, my home, got deep into dept, and eventually lost my freedom and did go into prison.

At some point, after some years of pain, i was tripping my balls from some research chemical. I was thinking if i just get rid of my values or start "lying" to my self that im not this person i was. I choose later one. Step by step, struggling, taking steps back i start learning live different way. I did not stop using drugs but start taking respossibility of my actions. If i was hungry, i find another way than stealing, etc...

Some years goes by and finally i did get off from drugs. Was closer to 30 at that time. Moved many times, had left everything behind.

So.. At 2021 i heard about bitcoin again. I had used it before around 2011 - 2013 (for ummm πŸ˜‚), and at this point i was not worked single day on my life. I had times when i got into some programs to get my self into work life, but it didint never work out.

So what now. Im working 4 days in week at nights under minimun wage. I dont own nothing really but dept (and bitcoin). But im happy and i have hope.

I have many peoples to thank, my friends who was with me, my mother.. And many of who i dont know but they made me see that theres hope in this world.

Stay beautiful πŸ’œ

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(Those ssri medicines never worked out, i have tried many of them and always just quit. Not eating them anymore for long time)

Have feeling that i should not post this, but if anyone have struggles with their own life, just remember, there's always possibility of change.

Glad you’re still here with us and that you have found growth and a healthier direction. You are important and valuable. Keep up the awesome work πŸ™πŸ½πŸ’ͺ🏽

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Thank you πŸ«‚πŸ’œ

And wont be going away any time soon, this place is like coming back to home. So welcome and warm.