GM, I feel like I've been wrestling with that question my whole life. What I want is Subconsciously in the background influencing every decision I make. Never revealing enough resolution to be able to articulate it.
I have been wrestling with it less since I had kids so my best guess is gene propegation.
I understand where you are coming from, I too have that same hazy guiding feeling.
I’m not sure we truly will know the full story this side of eternity.
Life is way too ethereal…
However, I do know that the One that guides us whispers the instructions that we need in the moment.
Outcome uncertain…
I find myself I must listen…
Someday, we will look back and all those mile markers that we lay down. That seem chaotic…
Will be straight…
Cheers!
