FWIW, it's only recently that I realized that *nobody* likes us, and there's nowhere for us to hide or go. I'm in that weird case where I can have *very* dark thoughts about how black people should just be raptured away so we don't have to deal with any of this, and OTOH, I like when current and former co-workers share how their kids are doing well.

I still don't know how you do it.