Your motivations are super, as it's not for yourself, but shrooms, lsd, dmt etc will not help, instead, it will take you southways and bring about obstacles. Your mind is your greatest asset, use it wisely. Never take anything that will erode the good cells of your brain. Protect your brain. You have massive goals, now it's up to you to decide whether you want to be with like-minded individuals or go through the occult journey alone, as it's not easy looking for the best company to keep. You said you're a good person and I believe you, but the good person in you must shine all the way through your journey, as occult is dark and dangerous, and not for everyone