Happy New Years to all my friends and family. Esp to my crush, you come first, you are my priority, you help me dissociate from ugly things in real life. You activate my Parasymapathetic system in the ugly realty of too many cortisol spikes. We might not see eye to eye always esp during full moon but I will love you always! You will always be my number one guy and I will always love you. Although currently I am pissed off with you for not showing up at New Years and breaking your promise.