Today I am devastated.
I had to let go of my best friend, daughter of choice, the light in my life.
She gave me strength when I needed it most.
Pinky, I will never forget you. I wish you were still here and I miss you.
I'm looking forward to see you again behind the curtain of this stage called life.
Goodnight, my little succubus π I love you.
So sorry for your loss π What a beautiful friend, may she guide and watch over you from the other side π
Thank you for your kind words, very appreciated π«
iβm so sorry for your loss dear mina β₯οΈ
Thanks you Roya, it means a lot to me π«
Btw "succubus" because she would sit on my chest every single night when I went to bed. She literally was breathtaking π
Awww. sweet thing.
I was so devastated when my dog passed away. π« Feeling you, right now.
Thank you π« I hope you're better again! How long ago has it been?
Decades. Still miss her.
I'm sorry to hear that. I hope I didn't drag you down π¬
No. I like remembering her. π₯°
This is beautiful. Today I'm busy crying but this is what I strive for.
π₯Ί Crying helps.
I think Duchess lost her sweety recently, as well. π
Forgot to tag her. She's very kind.
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Thank you, followed!
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Nice to meet you π
You too dear. Iβm praying for you and for your girl. Allow yourself to cry all you want, I still cry. Look at all of your photos with her, hug her blanket or something that was hers. She loves you, just as you love her.
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Thank you so much π« we lost her brother last year and then she got sick, I feel like I didn't digest any of it yet. It'll take some time, they were my family for more than a decade.
I hope you'll be better soon, too.
Oh, wow, I'm sorry for your loss. Two in two years is brutal.
Yes. :( Both with sickness it was like 12 months of constant worries and vet visits. Really draining
Yeah, mine died of leukemia. Hard to watch them suffer, like that.
Fuuck. I didn't even know that is a thing with animals. Sorry to hear that. With mine it was brain tumors. Confirmed with my other cat (his name was Brain, ironically).
And Pinky had the exact same symptoms, and she was still fit as a fiddle a year ago, so I think I won the lottery and had two brain tumors there.
Felt like shit too because you can see their personality just withering away slowly.
Cancer is a fucking bitch.
I guess, in the wild they don't get old enough to get old age diseases, so they at least had more time.
True, but no kind of cancer is an old age disease in my understanding.
But also vets tell us to feed our babies such shit food and now Iβm seeing so many people bringing up valid points that this is like a human eating from a can everyday, cancer will come. With age my girl started to have many health issues so in her last two years I decided to say fuck the vets and I started cooking for her. She go so much younger looking and healthier, but I think internally so much damage had been done with shit chemical foods that this cancer was building up and there was no way to reverse it. π
That's interesting, I only was asked once by a vet what food I give and I said "store food" and they gavee a look that guilt tripped me for days. Doesn't help right now either tbh π But that's what I did. I tried different types though to not get them used to a company ..
Idk, I can't even cook for myself and only eat trash. 4/5 racoon score π
Yeah when my little angle came into my life I was literally just eating cereal and smoothies so I had no idea what was even healthy for myself, but I was taking her to the vet every month just to do checks on this or that (1st time mom I was just over protective) and each time the vets would make sure Iβm giving her this special kibble for her specific breed. Not once did a vet say, actually itβs healthier to feed her liver, eggs and chicken heartsβ¦ I only recently discovered this (2 years ago). That was also around the time I started eating healthier myself.
Hopefully I'll do better next time. If I learn to cook til then
Mine got some canned meat sometimes, but mostly dry food. That was a mistake, as dogs are carnivores, but I never had any vet mention it.
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I am 100% prepared to be a better dog mom when it comes to the food and not giving kibble or canned food, I will make the effort to cook for my baby. The only thing holding me back is that Iβm not sure Iβll ever be able to love another soul the way I loved my girl, she was my match 100% and Iβll feel bad if I donβt love the next as much.
I'm sure you'll both do better.
It's sort of like the way our mothers' generation didn't breastfeed. They didn't do it on purpose, they just didn't know there was a reason to do it and the experts were like, Oh, that's old fashioned. Everyone just uses formula.
Live and learn. π€·πΌββοΈ
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To explain raccoon score.. 
My little girl also passed away from cancer ππ« the vet told me that with this treatment she was doing there was a 1% chance she would live and I just stuck to the idea that she was going to be this 1% that survived. Because of that I was not treating everyday like the last, I wish I had faced reality and just literally cancelled any dinner plans or anything that took me away from her during her last few months. When her time came I was in such denial that I could not even understand what the vet was telling me that day. Cancer is such a fucking bitch ππ I still miss my soulmate every second of everyday. I really wish I had just a few more days to do nothing but cuddle.
Girls, Iβm sending you so many hugs and thinking of our babies that gave us unconditional love all the way to their last days.
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I feel sorry for your loss. Stay strong, stay pinky.
That made me smile, thank you! I will stay Pinky! π«
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πΎ @Mina π½π bless your heart π«, I am so sorry to hear you had to say goodbye bye, I know itβs the hardest goodbye in the world. nostr:npub1m4ny6hjqzepn4rxknuq94c2gpqzr29ufkkw7ttcxyak7v43n6vvsajc2jl is right, I recently lost my entire world: my heart, my happiness, my soulmate, my chosen daughter, my firstborn, and I understand the exact emotions of emptiness, pain, and sorrow you are feeling. There are truly no words on this planet that can alleviate what you are experiencing. Losing such a pure, beautiful energy like our little girls is beyond what any human mind can fully comprehend.
I am so sorry for your loss. I send you a virtual hug π« I will pray to my little girl a d ask her to help welcome yours to her next home, where our babies will not only watch over us but guide us and wait for us to join them when it's our time, they will be the first souls that greet us.
I'm not sure how spiritual you are, but when my little girl left her physical body, I created a prayer corner for her with her photo, treats, flowers, and candles (I'll add a photo of someone who also did it with their cat along with other images that I hope make you smile even if only for a second). This space became extremely therapeutic and felt like our sanctuary. In the beginning I was worried that during those first few days of her crossing over, she might have wanted a go-to space to meet me until she got the hang of things. Now, I feel she is with me - all around me. I know in time you will feel she is still with you, but the pain never fully goes away.
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Oh wow, thank you for this long message! π― I just saw it now, my notifications are wonky.
Building an sort of altar sounds like a good idea, thanks for that! I'm not sure how spiritual I am, but creating it would give me a moment to reflect and remember anyway.
My best wishes to you, it seems like for you your pets are as much family as they are for me.
I hope we can heal or at least cope in some way until we see them again
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