i won't be doing tarot for a few days at least; i am barely moving around and i cannot stand at the table to do the cards - 🧘🏻‍♀️✌🏻.

one reality which emerges when you have a serious injury is your mentality in times of restriction. i internalize easily.

it is interesting to watch others around you respond to your lack of willingness to force or frustrate or be upset by your withdrawal - it is extremely interesting to watch others become frustrated by your acceptance of the situation.

when someone who always can, in fact cannot:

watch how quick to anger many become. one of the most basic health barometers of both a masculine and feminine mindset is the response to someone else's restrictions. an unhealthy feminine becomes nosey and mean spirited to the injured when they refuse their interventions; a masculine becomes angry, sometimes even abusive to the injured - out of fear of the mirror.

the patriarchal model is founded on that fear of being mirrored restriction and incapacitation - of being worthless and unable. the healthy feminine internalizes and creates a cocoon to heal, even if it is alone because a feminine energy is unable to do anything if she is unhealthy, so she understands withdrawal and sleep and healing. the healthy masculine moves gently around her, and anticipates basic needs, does not stress or force or pester. she becomes strong in her healing focus and he nurturing of her so she can battle her injury.

watch how a patriarchal model becomes agitated when their profits are impacted by a lack due to restrictions - from a feminine being unable to can. women die in domestic abuse situations most often after they are visibly injured.... reality, evidence, serious consequences of the mirror. the masculine determined to get a woman into surgery, or a masculine determined to make some show out of a feminine being injured: this is the warped norm we have allowed to face front in society. "i love surgery for you" he says. "that's not up to you" she says. she is vulnerable, being forced to move out of her healing to defend herself again - and he becomes agitated because she is refusing to comply, and because he sees the vulnerability of incapacitation and it frightens him. not for her - but for himself.

the unhealthy masculine sees a wounded feminine as a threat to his own mother energy, and the fear of losing being safe and nurtured; he hardens and becomes aggressive to make her listen to his view of the fastest way to become "normal again" so he doesn't have to worry anymore. a healthy masculine recognizes this and softens to her needs.

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